Dear Future Husband

Dear future husband,
How are you? Are you happy, or sad? Are you in a season of breaking, or breakthrough? I wonder how you look like; what are your favorites, the things that make you sad, where your happy place is, or what your comfort food is. I’m excited to know you, but no’t yet today… someday.

Today is Heart’s Day (Valentine’s Day). I see sweet couples everywhere I go. Vendors of chocolates, teddy bears, and of course, (overpriced) bouquets in every corner of the street. They indeed painted the town red.

Good news for you (bad news for me): I’m dating nobody. I’m one of those single ladies who won’t be receiving any flowers from her special someone, and probably will be just staying the whole day at home.

And yes, honestly speaking, I get a little bit bitter and envious at the same time for being single on a Valentine’s day. I feel even worse seeing younger people who have dates and are being surprised by their boyfriends. And here I am, a graduating college student, single.

But it’s okay.

I’m dating nobody because I want to be faithful to you even though I haven’t met you yet. Let me do my very best to keep my fidelity to you even with the smallest thing – to preserve my purity in all aspects. This is the one of the greatest thing that I could do in preparing myself to be a blessing to you because I honor you.

“Do not awaken love until the time is right. (Song of Songs 8:4)”

 

I will not rush things to happen, neither to try manipulate it on my own, but just let the best Author of love write our story. For I believe that God makes things beautiful in its own time. And just let this season of waiting as a season of letting God mold both us into the man and woman He wants us to become.

But truth be told, waiting is not as easy as it looks like. Things are a lot easier said than done. And if time will come that I’ll be tempted to just settle for the good enough, let God’s grace remind me to wait a little more – that I’m waiting for the man He has planned for me, and sure you’re worth it.

I’m not waiting for you just because I want someone who’ll give me chocolates and flowers on Valentine’s day, that would be cool tho, but it’s more than that…you’re worth more than that.

I’m waiting for someone who doesn’t just give me butterflies in my stomach, but someone who I’m comfortable with just being myself, without any filters. Someone I know who’ll not just be proud of my strengths but will also accept my weaknesses. For we won’t be competing with one another, rather we’ll complement each other. And together, let’s be strong in the Lord.

Someone I would delight listening to because I know I’ll learn a lot from your revelations from God. A wise man who gets his wisdom from fearing the Lord. And at the same time, someone who I would laugh my lungs out with because of his timeless jokes, and won’t get tired to listen to everything that has happened to his whole day — both the good things and the bad.

I’ll remind myself that I’m waiting for someone who doesn’t just inspire me to be a better person, but leads me to next level with my relationship with God. Someone who’ll push me closer to Him rather than to himself; who’ll constantly remind me that I should not depend on him but only to our Maker. We’ll pray, worship, and read the bible together. We’ll be partners in ministry, and supporting each other’s calling.

I’m waiting for someone whom I can grow with, for I know you are not perfect, same here. You and I will always be a work in progress. So let’s give allowances with each other’s short comings. Let’s be patient enough when one of us fails, and be graciously forgive each other’s faults. We’ll not only encourage, but also lovingly rebuke each other, when needed.

I’m waiting for a man who doesn’t just love me, but who is also spirit-filled, for I know your love alone will not be enough to accept my imperfection. Know that I will not be easy to love. There will be times that you’ll not understand my mood or that I’ll be too needy and petty. But let us let the Holy Spirit to be our Paraclete, to enable us to stick with each us other, through the highs and lows of our relationship.

And lastly, I’m waiting for the man I prayed for. Someone who’s perfectly flawed, who is sometimes will be my enemy; someone who’s maybe has a not-so-good-past, but one thing I’m sure of – you’re God-given.

Wherever you are right now,  whatever you are going through, I’m fighting for you and with in prayer. And whatever or whoever you are, with all your imperfection – let me love you.

 

Love, I don’t know how long we still need to wait. But let’s not focus on that; rather let’s fix our eyes on God, and go deeper with our relationship with Him. Let it not become the main desires of our hearts and just surrender it all to Him.

For if it’s really His will, fate shall make a way for us to meet when we’re both ready for it.

And no matter how long it may take, I will still wait.

For you are the fulfillment of God’s promise to me.

Love,